Now that I have shared some of my struggles and reflected upon them, I feel I can move forward being positive. Thank you for your kindness and hugs!
I feel I should post my upcoming plans for improvement. I see now that I have more work to do regarding my inner child, anger, and assertiveness. So, while I have more work in those areas, I feel like I have entered a new stage. I feel much more determined to get my life together. I want to be organized, detached, positive, and healthy. I feel as though I am taking more responsibility for myself. I'm guessing I have matured somewhat. Also, I feel very overwhelmed but want to find a solution myself, not just blame the world for it. I've been good at taking the initiative to do things, however, I believe I always thought of myself as a victim.
Regardless of how people feel or act, I can totally control how I react. I don't have to join an argument, I don't have to feel a certain way, I don't have to think negatively. While I still feel weak in the area of assertiveness, I feel stronger than ever. I still live in fear, but can deal with it. The world seems to crumble under me, but I am now determined to not be defeated.
I have to go now, but will post more at a later time.
*hugs* <3
Yepp, the transformation from a victim to a survivor and teh awareness coming with it; is happening. Good for you. Congrats. 3 months ago I disliekd the prospect of having to do more inner child work, now Iam loveing it. I amc loser to myself than ever before. I loved the book "The child within" I loved creating symbols for my inner team. By now when I analyse a action / reaction, I consider and move my smybols around in my mind till it fits the emotion and the situaion. I hope furtehr down the road becomes a habit without a conscious effort to have more awarenss when which part of me is acting (or often rather acting up). Did you get my mail / comment about intuitive paintings? Keep you in my thoughts, Hugs Paula
ReplyDeletedear IK, i think all the self-work we do is so good for us. but i was telling my husband about my post today, talking about how hard i'm working at changing myself. and he told me not to forget that sometimes it's also ok not to try so hard, and sometimes it's ok just to accept ourselves for being human.
ReplyDeleteit reminded me that life is complicated and messy. it's not perfect and neither are we. there is beauty in life. we can work hard and do our best, but it's also good to take breaks from trying so hard, and give ourselves pats on the back, hugs, love and acceptance. we need all these things too.
sending you hugs, love and acceptance for everything you are doing, as well as for who you are and where you are right now~~
And you will succeed my friend!!! Good luck to you.
ReplyDeleteAlways appreciate what you have to share dear. All the best dear one.
ReplyDeleteHello friend. I am so happy to have read this positive post it has truly lifted me. I can not thank you enough for your constant support as I have not been around enough lately. You are never ever forgotten and I will catch up on what I have missed. You are dear to me. xoxo
ReplyDeleteBest of luck !!!
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