An Update to Start the Week ...

Times like this when I drop out of the blogworld, I get a bit frustrated.  So much has happened but is difficult to catalog after a bit of absence.

I have not yet gone to the local CODA meetings.  Some other things just came up and one time I totally forgot.  However, tomorrow night is when they both go on.  I still wonder if I should try one for six weeks and then try the other or go back and forth. 

One is earlier, women's only, and a step meeting.  However, it is quite far away, which will be difficult in the coming winter.  The other may be less structured and later, but is close enough for me to get to fairly easily.  I guess if there's times I can't make it due to transportation and times, that's just how it goes.

These next couple of weeks will be of solitude for me.  As I believe I said last year, my roommates go on annual summer and winter vacations.  In the past, I struggled a lot with loneliness and the difficulty I had with past pain and internal negativity.  While I am an introvert by nature and love the idea of solitude, I feel my past and current ways of dealing with things makes me dislike it.  When alone, I overanalyze more, go off on tangents more in my mind, and just end up being a lot more emotional.

However, I am determined that this time will be different.  I do feel as though I've made a lot of progress over the past year.  Also, a streak of discipline has entered my consciousness.  I have been doing a lot better with my emotional eating and taking care of myself in various other ways.

I am now also in the second half of my cycle so I'm doing all I can with a healthy diet and stress relief.  I can get very down and emotional, past pain also bothers a lot more.  So I will do my best to take the best care of myself that I can.

Anyway, that's all I have for now.  Take care all!  *hugs*  <3