I just wanted to thank everyone for their input on my femininity and comment response posts. I'm glad that I can share stuff here, though it may not be well received elsewhere.
Anyway, I've been in a bit of a rough patch lately. I don't really want to go into it as it is rather minor. I feel rather ashamed for feeling badly as I really haven't had it that badly. Some of the abuse and trauma some of my readers go through makes my life seem like a fairy world.
I feel rather guilty as well because I know that my codependency and whatever other issues have made me a pain in the butt and an embarrassment to others. Understanding better that I control my emotions and reactions makes me realize that I have acted poorly and it's my responsibility. I know that I cannot change the past, I just feel bad that I haven't brought enough joy to others.
Ok, I should stop. Now I'm just whining. I hope I have not offended anyone with this post.
Of course it isn't offensive. I do the same thing. Worry about what other think. It's my party and I'll whine if I want to.
ReplyDeleteWelcome Back!
ReplyDeleteBless you and be gentle with you!
I think many people feel like you are expressing here. I think it can also be one of the things we do best. Minimizing, not finding ourselves worthy of the support we need. This is a safe place for you, you are safe here.
Thanks for sharing with us and Hugs,
Vicki
You are not whining dear one. Glad to have you back. Thanks for being real.
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IK; this blog is your little world in this wide web thing. I am happy to be able to stop by and hear what you have to say, WHATEVER IT IS, because in all I do find myself too, sometimes more, sometimes less. And today a LOT. It isnt whining, it is ventile( not sure about the word here) to get rid of pressure. Please be what, how and who you are. Love
ReplyDeleteI'm glad you found my blog and I glad to hear what you have to say on yours. We all need to get things out to heal. It is never whining.
ReplyDeleteI relate to feeling as though my experience hasn't been that bad and feeling guilty. But I wonder how much of that is denial. I meditate and would be happy to listen if you want any support with that. Take care.
ReplyDeleteIf there is anything I've learned in four years of blogging, running the blog carnival against child abuse, being in and out of hospitals, etc. etc. it's that trauma is trauma. You can't compare. Your pain isn't any less than anyone elses. It's your blog and you can "whine" all you want!
ReplyDeleteHey, thanks for coming to my blog and leaving your supportive comment yesterday. Do you really think I've brought comfort and peace to other survivors through my blog? Wow! I never would have though about it like that. Thanks for saying that...really.